Just Stand…….A call to a place of deep surrender.
Something I have learned about my walk with Abba is that He allows me to experience something first and then through that process He teaches me, so that I can teach the bride. Many times I will pray, “Abba please let me be true in all things and when I teach your Word let it be truth in my life and bear fruit in my life first, so that people can eat the fruit of truth from my ministry”, my heart when it comes to being a representative of Him is to always be transparent and honest. When ABBA asked me to share a part of my journey with you in this last season it really challenged my heart because I felt “exposed ” but my heart is as you read that you will experience the depth of the call of His heart, for His bride to come into a place of deeper surrender.
Acts 20:24 New King James Version (NKJV)
24 [a]But none of these things move me; nor do I count my life dear to myself, so that I may finish my [b]race with joy, and the ministry which I received from the Lord Jesus, to testify to the gospel of the grace of God
Abba takes all our prayers and sincere hearts’ cries seriously and my whole life as a child of God has been like that – He will make His Word alive in me and sometimes that means going through things in the flesh, to experience His heart for His bride.
The last while I have been dealing with the pain of rejection and being misunderstood. I can’t explain the pain I felt in my heart and to be honest it is still there. Last night I “wrestled” with Abba. I could not understand what He was teaching me and this has been such a long process for me. My question to Him was that I have dealt with so many things in my life already, and I know the pain that I am feeling is not of the past but of things that have been happening in my life in this last season. As I wrestled with Him, trying to figure out why it hurts so much and why I just can’t get “over” it, He started revealing His heart to me.
One of the things I experienced and said to Him was the following, all I want is just that one person / friend besides my husband (he is really my rock and strength but the “need” extended further), I just wanted that one friend that loves unconditionally and that truly knows and understands me… While praying and just talking to Him during the night about all these things that seem so foolish but yet so important, He started to teach me. I said to Him, “ABBA I don’t understand why I feel this way, even though there are some that really don’t like me, yet I am surrounded by so many people that love me, why am I feeling like this? It is a pain and type of loneliness I can’t explain, it is as if people see me and they think they know me, but no one really knows me and understands the depth of who I truly am”. This was my conversation to Him out of a deep place of feeling all these things that I cannot put into words. Then He said, “What you are experiencing and the depth of the pain and rejection you are feeling is the longing in my heart for my bride. She knows of Me and speaks to Me and some even love Me – but very few KNOW the depths and truth of who I truly am”, I can’t explain the sorrow I felt at that moment! To know His heart and to feel what He feels! What He allowed me to go through pulled me into a deeper place of surrender in Him.
I now understand this scripture with a deeper revelation and how His heart felt when He shared it with His disciples:
Matthew 7:21-23 New King James Version (NKJV)
I Never Knew You
21 “Not everyone who says to Me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ shall enter the kingdom of heaven, but he who does the will of My Father in heaven. 22 Many will say to Me in that day, ‘Lord, Lord, have we not prophesied in Your name, cast out demons in Your name, and done many wonders in Your name?’ 23 And then I will declare to them, ‘I never knew you; depart from Me, you who practice lawlessness!’
I realized, the burden I am carrying, the rejection and pain I am experiencing, the times of not being understood and being misjudged for who I truly am, gave me a glimpse of the longing in His heart. His heart is longing for His bride to wake up. His heart is longing for His bride to get to know Him through having a real and honest relationship with Him. He does not want us to serve Him in religion, He is longing for relationship in spirit and in truth.
All He wants, even if it just one, is someone that truly loves Him, unconditionally with no other motives, someone, His Bride to serve Him and Him alone, a bride that is willing to lay down his/her life for Him, unconditionally serving and loving Him, nothing else that are more important than Him. A deeper place of surrender!
Abba created us for intimacy, He created us to have relationship with Him. It was stolen when sin came into the garden, but because He loves us and longs to dwell with us and have relationship with us, He gave us His Son, our Lord Jesus Christ (Yeshua). He died on the cross and shed His blood to restore us back to a place of relationship with our Father.
In the life of Jesus we read about 12 disciples, one betrayed Him, one denied Him, the others left Him when He went through the most excruciating time of His life, only one remained and he was the one who truly knew Jesus and who truly loved Him.
John 13:23 New King James Version (NKJV)
Now there was [a]leaning on Jesus’ bosom one of His disciples, whom Jesus loved.
John is an example to us as the bride, we need to be so close to Him that we can hear the rhythm of His heartbeat and the whisper of His voice. Jesus is longing for us, as His bride, to recline at the table of intimacy and put our ears on His chest so that we can hear!
Even though the heartache and pain I am feeling is real, I now have a different understanding of the heart of our Father. I understand that nothing that we go through is in vain, when we are in relationship with Him He guides and directs our footsteps. It is not always an easy walk but our lives and all things concerning our lives carries purpose.
My only desire is to live to please Him and to bring honor and glory to Him. We cannot live for this world and the things of this world or for people. We are in this world but not of it. We are living in this world bringing the Kingdom of God into manifestation and striving and preparing for eternity with Him, but while we are on the earth we have a mandate to fulfill, and that is to manifest Him. For us to manifest Him we need to be clothed in Him, our lives must reflect Him.
Romans 13:14 (NKJV)
14 But put on the Lord Jesus Christ, and make no provision for the flesh, to fulfill its lusts.
Maybe someone needed to hear this today. Remember, people will come and go, you will be misunderstood and sometimes even feel lonely while being surrounded by people, that is ok. Allow Abba to shape and mold your character and cling to Him! That place of loneliness is a place that only HE can fill.
Romans 5:3-4 New King James Version (NKJV)
3 And not only that, but we also glory in tribulations, knowing that tribulation produces [a]perseverance; 4 and perseverance, [b]character; and character, hope.
Reach out to Him, have relationship with Him. Walk with Him and talk with Him like Enoch did. Your life has purpose in Him.
And then, when you have done all you can and you know you are in right standing with Him, JUST STAND.
Therefore, put on the complete armor of God, so that you will be able to [successfully] resist and stand your ground in the evil day [of danger], and having done everything [that the crisis demands], to stand firm [in your place, fully prepared, immovable, victorious].
Abba is calling us to put on the fullness of who Jesus Christ is. He is calling us to step into Him (putting on our armour), to have an intimate relationship with Him. And then when you have done all you can, then just Stand in Him, no matter what you are going through, no matter what you are feeling, just stand firm in Him. By putting on the armour you are putting on Christ and when you stand you are standing IN HIM.
To stand has 2 meanings:
1. To not act, or to not do something – abstain, neglect…
When you are clothed in Christ and you have done all you can to overcome a matter or circumstances the Word then says “just stand”. Do not act or do something else, abstain and neglect the matter or circumstances and just stand in Him and He will move on your behalf.
2. [transitive] [stand by someone] to be loyal to someone who is in a difficult situation. We knew they would stand by us no matter what we’d done. To support an idea, plan or person: support, back, get behind…
To stand by Him, to stand for the Truth of His Word, to stand for His Kingdom and be loyal to only Him. When you have done all you can then just stand in loyalty and a pure heart for the truth of His Kingdom and who He is until it manifests.
Through this process, one of the things I experienced was His heart and the “pain” He feels when we reject Him by not truly knowing Him. Move into Him today (putting on Christ, putting His Word in your heart) and get to know the depths of the Truth of who He is, through His Word, return to your first Love! And then when life throws you a curveball, no matter what your heart feels, JUST STAND in Him, and He will direct your path and lead you through.
I will never forget the “pain” of not being known for who I truly am or for someone to understand me, because in a much deeper way He carries that same “pain” and longing to be known, truly known by His Bride.
Matthew 22:37 New King James Version (NKJV)
37 Jesus said to him, “‘You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, and with all your mind.
Much love and many blessings
Linda Chuter – Lady Rose